Friday, July 19, 2024
Dad , I Never thought this day would come so soon . I don’t even know where to start . I had the best childhood thanks to you . You were a man that knew how to do so much you were so kind to others . You and Tessa had the best relationship from the first day she came home from the hospital u came right outside to carry her in . I remember the smile and happiness in your face . We were so happy when u retired from the military and we lived in shubenacadie. You loved mom so much there was no question there. Goodness you guys even started working together. You kept up with this house and did it all by yourself . And it wasn’t easy , I see that now because I’m here doing it . I put u through so much dad and I’m sorry I wish I had the chance to tell you that . I’m truly going to miss you so much . U were always there for me whenever I needed it the most . The day you showed up with a U-Haul to pick my kids and my stuff up . Probably was the best thing u ever did for me . I thank u for that . I thank u for never giving up on my beautiful girls and myself . Thank you for being there and loving and never giving up on my mom / ur wife . Showing and teaching me so many things . Teaching Tessa so so much let’s just say she knows how to use a lawnmower all because of you . Showing my girls how to fish . I just loved doing those things with you . Hunting / setting snares and going back to check them out. Playing bingo as a little girl at the table with you and mom and Ian . only giving us a corner from yours and moms . But that was for the best lol saving squirrel tails. And I can’t for get the rabbit feet those were good luck . U were always up to something even when you started to get sick , that was hard for me . That’s when mom worked away and i was living down the road we would visit eachother all the time . It was hard for me to see the changes in ur health and you changing . You sure did give the workers a run for their money . They were always on their feet and ready to go . It was scary at times you would get out and start walking / hitchhiking to my house . Tobeigh and Tessa loved u so much and they will never forget all the times they had with you . U were so good to them you loved them so much . And they know that . The day you weren’t able to come back home because of ur safety was hard . But I knew you were going to be safe and not be able to go out or even get lost because u could never sit and stay still for too long u always were on the hunt for things . having you placed in cedar stone gave my mom so much relief and comfort knowing you were able to walk and do things and also be watched around the clock , the care we couldn’t always provide you . Times were tough When mom had to work and still pay bills and feed both you guys ,
But don’t worry she wasn’t alone dad David and tobeigh and myself moved in and we started to help and also be there with you . I cherish those days dad . Educating myself helped a lot and talking to others. But also physically doing it and experiencing it myself helped more now and I’d never wish that illness on anybody. Losing u once was hard , losing you now is even harder ,I’m broken I’m torn I’m everything. Trying to stay strong for my daughters is so hard when I’m failing at taking care of myself right now . Mom’s going to miss you so much she’s hurting and trying to stay strong for us . When I know she wants to cry . She loved you so much and u loved her so much there was no question . U kept us all safe. Thank you for that . I’ll never be ready to let you go . The pain of seeing you there for the last time so cold , with no life was painful it hurt and tore me apart. I’d give anything to have u yell , punish or even sit and talk . It’s been so long to actually talk and have you really respond and know what our conversation was about . When u forgot who we were was awful and the days I was ur sister I took that as u knew me . I was taking anything at that time knowing u knew me by looking at me and my voice. We all took that hard . But still cherish every moment with you still . I wish all my friends got to know u like a lot of my other friends. U were awesome dad don’t forget that . Thank you for loving me and taking care of mom , your grandchildren & I , I love you so much and going to miss you like crazy . Forever in my heart and u will never be forgotten. I’ll cherish my last walk beside youwhile we heading out of cedar store and seeing everyone that was working line up to see you out . Rest peacefully my father . You are no longer in pain and hurting. You’re no longer suffering from ur illness and the fall that took u sooner . Now you’ll be able to see your father who was waiting for you when ur time was ready. Love you always Jess
